May 27th, 2014by youwillneverknowme
What am I, exactly?
What are all of you? Who are all of you? Some people, appear to. . . act different. . . than others. . . . We instantly label those people and there are so many normal people but it feels like there are more, different people, and, the normal people, we don’t notice them, we don’t. . . really. . . notice much things about people
(It’s amazing what you can find out when you start paying attention.
The better you listen, the less you talk.
But the more you talk, the more real, the more, normal. . . you become.)
and. . . just, don’t be normal, I guess. What is normal? What is the most common personality?
( It did not occur to me, ever, that people were good)
Inappropriate? Too intellectual? This is all kind of, repetitive, I guess. Don’t rants get old after a while? Doesn’t all the bitching become tedious? If you act different in any way you’re considered a retard. Waste. . .
Intellect is not a cure. Nothing seems to matter anymore.
(What am I to all of you?)
People are not good, no one is capable of being a nice person. No one ever likes the right person, there is no such thing as a right person, everyone is fastidious, greed is currently and ultimately will always be, excelling. There is no cure for anything. No getting over anything. Nothing ever goes away; things just fade. Most things don’t even fade, people just try to hide a vague but still vivid trauma. After a while, I forgot what it felt like to receive someones love, or happiness. And, there is this idea of who I am. A kid, who, doesn’t really appear in anyone’s life as anyone major or important in any way. I am, an extra, in everyone’s life; I’m just scenery, a meaningless entity. The. . . reason I’ve lost all emotion, why nothing matters, is. . . because, I’ve never received anyone’s love, happiness, glee, joy, emotions.
I’ve realized why I need to die:
I have no reason to live, no one to live for, no one to matter to, no where to receive other peoples joy and love; I simply do not matter to anyone.
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